Number 6

Number 6 is done.
It was....
"have hair short for awhile"

7 inches is gone, head is feeling much lighter.
Loving it.

No picture but it will come soon.

that it for now :)

5 and 2

Happy 5th Birthday to Mya!!

(i am a little late) You turn 5 on Feb 4 and I am so happy for you! You are such an amazing little girl, I am so happy I get to watch you grow up. I am one lucky nanny. I watch you crawl and now you are running circles around everyone. You are the sweetest girl in the world. I love you Mya, my little cupcake

and...

Happy 2nd Birthday Abby!!

Today in your day!! You are one crazy kid but you make everyone around you laugh. You are starting those terrible twos so we are all in for a ride especially your parents. You are super cute kid and I love you. I am glad I get to watch you grow up!!

Prone to Wander

I never had a strong faith, I still don't. Believe it or not, I still question if God if real or not. I am always 23 years old, shouldn't I have this figured out by now. I mean, I see his miracles in other people lives. I see him taking care of other people but I really feel like God forgot about me. Yes, I pray for certain things and I know he doesn't have to answer those things right away. But when I pray for those things for almost 3 years now and he doesn't give me anything, I feel forgotten.

I just want him to give me a reason for living. I just want him to show me my calling. I know there has, there has to be a purpose for my life. I feel worthless all the freaking time. I feel alone. I feel like there is no one behind me to catch if I fall.

I heard all my life, that God gives us our hearts desire but in his own timing. That can't be the answer for everything. It just can't be. I mean, if just seem like God likes seeing my hurting.

I just want a purpose.

Playing Catch Up

OK, so remember my post about 101 things in 1001 days. Yeah well, I have check off some but never blog about them. So here we go:

100. See Toy Story 3

I didn't get to see in the theaters, I had to wait until DVD. But I love it, Toy Story is just a great storyline and I would love to see more.

97. Get a new Car

Yes, I did. An 06 Chrysler Pacifica. When I brought it, it only had 6500 miles on it. Amazing right. I should have a picture of it but I don't. I really happy with my new car.

92. Spend all of my gift cards (seven) from this year (2010) before the year (2010) is over.

Well, I did and I got some really great deals. I mostly used them on black Friday. :)

91. See Vanessa new baby

Little Connor was born on Dec. 2nd 2010. Now is almost 2 months old and cute as can be. He gives his parents a hard time but they love him just the same. Big sister Abby is doing great at her new role.

66. Go to the Cleveland Zoo

(this is only half the goal but I finish the other half later) Vanessa and Kel and their kids and I went to this zoo, this passed week. It was cold but alot of things were indoors so it was amazing. We all had a blast.

62. Buy a second queen sheet set.

I did this also on Black Friday, there are aqua and fit in perfect with my bed. I love them, they are super soft.

50. In Nov. 2010, when my cell phone plan is up, get a GOOD phone.

Well I did, I got a blackberry bold. I love it. I never though I would have a smart phone but it amazing. I believe I did good.

Well, that it for now, hopefully I will do better this year. lol and I hope to have more pictures.

Thankfulgiving

So have blog in like 2 years, give or take a few. Oh well, I will start new...today.

Thanksgiving is not of one my favorite holidays but I do have things to be thankful like....

My family- I truly have the best mom, dad, sister and brother. I am very thankful that I get to call them my family.

My friends-the family that I choose. I am very thankful that I can call them friends and do silly things with them.

My job-I am very lucky that I have had this job for 5 years and I still am loving it.

Bruno-the best puppy in the world

Decisions that were made for me before I was born. If I wasn't adopted I wouldn't have the life I have.

My God-he loves me even when I don't deserved to be loved.

Small miracles that remind me everyday that life is worth it.

Many things but that all I can think of for now.

I am a very lucky girl.

Please Lord

I know that people who read blog (which no one reads mine) want blogs to be happy. Well I cannot even fake it anymore. I am not happy, I do not like my life. I don't see a point of getting out of bed anymore. In fact, if there is nothing going on, I don't usually get out of bed. I swear I don't see the point in my life anymore.

I know what people say, you are depressed which I am but it just a lot of things. I need a change. I need to feel God again. I need to know that my life is gonna turn out amazing. I feel like I have been doing the same damn thing for the past 22 years of my life. I need something, something big to change.

My whole life I have just wanted to be a mom and a wife. I pray all the time that it will happen. I pray all the time if it not supposed to happen, that God will take those desires away but he doesn't, they just get stronger. Well, why the hell hasn't it happen? I know I am only 22 but that all I want. All the others things don't even compare to how much I want to be a Mom and Wife. I can't even explain it.

Please Lord, hear me. Make something change so I see the point of living.

Fab Piggy

Isn't she the cutest?!?!

It a piggy bank and I am in love with her.

She is a mark down pig (normal price is $10.00, that crazy)

I got her for $2.99. I have wanted one forever, every time I would go to Target.

So I finally got one, she cute and cheap. Perfect