is my turn next?

For the past 8 years, I have been babysitting, all ages. For the past 3 years, I have been a nanny.

I am skilled in potty training a girl, putting kids to bed/nap, making three meals a day, dropping and picking up kids to school, going to awful play dates, doing mommy and me classes, giving kids a bath while I am fully dressed,playing made up games, holding kids while they cry having my ear almost blow off because they are so freaken loud, and so many things that mom do every day.

I been called mom so many times and to be honest most days, I don't correct them because most people don't get it, "i am just the nanny." , yeah i know, way to hard to understand.

anyways, my point is, I want to be a real mommy and wife. real bad.

That all I have ever wanted to be. As far back as I can remember, I just want to be a wife and mommy. Scared off some guys when I tell the truth.

So many friends and family are getting married and starting a family and don't get me wrong, I couldn't be happy for them but I just keep wondering, is it my turn, next.

My prayer for the longest time, is for true love to come along my way. I want it, I don't care about the wedding, a court house or Vegas is fine with me, I just want a marriage, and then kids and lots of them.

I just had to complain and hopes that it comes really fast because I been ready for a long time.

please God, let it happen soon. thanks, i love you.