dating....

yeah,dating has never been fun for me just cause it awkward and hard.
it much much easier just to be in a relationship.

but i guess you have to date to get in a relationship, right.

a friend of mine got her boyfriend for a website call datinghookup.com. 8 months and going.
a couple friends got married from eharmony.com but that one way to much money.

so i though what the heck, i going try it, the free one. lol

so wish me luck.

is my turn next?

For the past 8 years, I have been babysitting, all ages. For the past 3 years, I have been a nanny.

I am skilled in potty training a girl, putting kids to bed/nap, making three meals a day, dropping and picking up kids to school, going to awful play dates, doing mommy and me classes, giving kids a bath while I am fully dressed,playing made up games, holding kids while they cry having my ear almost blow off because they are so freaken loud, and so many things that mom do every day.

I been called mom so many times and to be honest most days, I don't correct them because most people don't get it, "i am just the nanny." , yeah i know, way to hard to understand.

anyways, my point is, I want to be a real mommy and wife. real bad.

That all I have ever wanted to be. As far back as I can remember, I just want to be a wife and mommy. Scared off some guys when I tell the truth.

So many friends and family are getting married and starting a family and don't get me wrong, I couldn't be happy for them but I just keep wondering, is it my turn, next.

My prayer for the longest time, is for true love to come along my way. I want it, I don't care about the wedding, a court house or Vegas is fine with me, I just want a marriage, and then kids and lots of them.

I just had to complain and hopes that it comes really fast because I been ready for a long time.

please God, let it happen soon. thanks, i love you.

Rain storms are amazing to listen to and to sleep to, too.

I love the rain, I love how to cleans everything. Make everything fresh looking and new looking. It feeds hungry plants.


All and all, it reminds me of Jesus. cause every once in a while, it make me fresh and new looking. and feeds me.


rain is a good thing.

first

Happy Birthday Cora!!!
You are one!!!

I sure that heaven had a great party for you. One that was sure better than what your parents could have planned for you.

You are amazing little girl and even though you are gone, you are teaching people so much. Not alot of people can say that.

Everyone is missing you. Have a good first birthday!!!